listen to the heartbeats

life? it happens to you on the way to the big things you think are "life".

life is "body time", the now. not "mechanical time" of clock time. we just need clock time becuase we are afraid of body time. clock time reassures.

life is moments. the now. at 07.21am when you open your eyes and look into the eyes of someone you love. the 11.46am moment when a talking animal says something profoundly silly and true. or the 15.38pm moment when you suddenly laugh while sipping tea. life is 21.04pm when a haunting piece of music goes like an arrow into you. its the 01.57am moment when in the stillness of the night you stop and a thought goes so deep, its poignancy pierces.

we wait for life. prepare for it. manic redecorators of houses we spend time redesigning it. we plan. the next day, next week, next month, next year, ten years. we imagine it will come. later. not today.

but

life

is

just

a

heartbeat.

it can

stop.

at any moment.

the next minute. the next hour. the next day.

there is no later. just the now. as alan lightman said "instead they listened to their heartbeats".

i like that.

i want to live listening to heartbeats. mine and others.